If you don't look to the future, you don't get disappointed. You don't play out scenarios in your mind over and over, trying to figure out how to handle things. You don't feel bad about how the future isn't going to work, because the future doesn't exist.
And if you don't have a future, you don't need to learn from the past.
I haven't looked into the past because I don't need to make sure the future works. I don't have to learn from my mistakes because I'll deal with situations as I meet them.
I don't need to remember pain, because all emotion now is fleeting. Why hold on?
only there feels like there's something wrong. and I can't pin it down.
I just know that something is wrong, and sometimes when I'm with people it's right . . . but I don't know what it is.