i cannot shake the feeling that i've screwed this up. i cannot help but feel that she doesn't want to talk to me, and i don't know why. i went up to curl up with her and sleep, and did i do something wrong? i don't know. she said she didn't mind, but . . .
but she hasn't talked to me since.
i leave in fourteen hours. many of those will be spent sleeping.
(i just wanted to spend time with her. that's all. and instead i may have lost her.)
(note to self: when in pain, don't say anything. it never helps.)