i'm hurting people i care about. i'm looking at looming deadlines and realizing i can't handle them. i don't have a working computer and i don't have access to my bank account so i can get replacement parts. (even if i knew what was wrong. which at the moment i still don't.)
i would give just about anything to curl up with someone for a few years and just not have to think.
it's too much. it's just too much stuff i have to do. too much stuff looming over me. i can't handle it all.