February 23rd, 2001

sleepy

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finally figured out why I hate going to class so much . . . it's because class is boring and does not take much thought, so I think about other things . . . which inevitably settle into thinking about things that I do not wish to think about, and I end up spending half-or-more of the class simply trying not to cry.

Which may also be why I sit in the back of the class.

current mood: "Is there a word for when you feel sort of depressed, and sort of sad, but not really either?" "No."
current music: [Nields-Home]-14-Forever
sleepy

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i still recall the taste of your tears
echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears
my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
scraping through my head til i don't want to sleep anymore

come on tell me
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i'm down to just one thing and i'm starting to scare myself
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i just want something
i just want something i can never have

you always were the one to show me how
back then i couldn't do the things that i can do now
this thing is slowly taking me apart
grey would be the color if i had a heart

come on tell me
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i'm down to just one thing and i'm starting to scare myself
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i just want something
i just want something i can never have

in this place it seems like such a shame
though it all looks different now, i now it's still the same
everywhere i look you're all i see
just a fading fucking reminder of who i used to be

come on tell me
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i'm down to just one thing and i'm starting to scare myself
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i just want something
i just want something i can never have
I am no fan of newer Nine Inch Nails, but their first album is simply . . . right.

current mood: nine inch nails. nothing more needs to be said.
current music: [NiN-PHM]-05-Something I Can Never Have
sleepy

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scratch that, lemme try a different one.

just when everything was making sense
you took away all my self confidence
now all that i've been hearing must be true
i guess i'm not the only boy for you

but that's what i get

how could you turn me into this
after you just taught me how to kiss
you
i told you i'd never say goodbye
now i'm slipping on the tears you made me cry

but that's what i get

why's it come as a surprise
to think that i was so naive
maybe didn't mean so much
but it meant everything to me
better.

the strange thing is, I'm not as depressed as these look like I am . . . I'm just . . .
  • Current Music
    [NiN-PHM]-08-That's What I Get