March 6th, 2001

sleepy

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yeah . . . so, she's back home. Which means more internet access, which means I might actually talk to her again. Woo.

Still not *exactly* happy about the way I was treated . . . faugh. If she notices that I'm not exactly dropping everything for her anymore, and cares, and decides to mention it, I'll probably tell her why.

yeah. So it all makes sense, in the end, and still leaves the fact that she didn't wait for my side of the story. Which is undeniable. Everything else can be considered different tones, or mistakes, or so forth. But she waited and thought for a week. Then broke up with me without wanting to hear anything first.

so, is that inexcusable, or am I rationalizing?
sleepy

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Every once in a while I can figure out the right music to listen to from my mood. Sometimes it works the other way around . . . sometimes I'm not sure if it's working on not. I quote lyrics:
She clings to me like cellophane
Fake plastic submarine
Slowly driving me insane
But now that's over

So what if the sex was great
Just a temporary escape
Anorther thing I grew to hate
But now that's over

Why . . . why you always kick me when I'm high
Knock me down 'till we see eye to eye
Then again, for all I know she
May not be Miss Right - she'll do right now
She'll do right now

I used to hang on every word
Each lie was more absurd
Kept me so insecure
But now that's over

She taught me how to trust
And to believe in us
And then she taught me how to cuss
That bitch, it's over

(you know I used to be such a nice boy)

Why . . . why you always kick me when I'm high
Knock me down 'till we see eye to eye
Then again, for all I know she
May not be Miss Right - she'll do right now
She'll do right now

She clings to me like cellophane
Fake plastic submarine
She's driving me insane
But now that's over (now that's over)

Why . . . why you always kick me when I'm high
Knock me down 'till we see eye to eye
Then again, for all I know she
May not be Miss Right - she'll do right now
She'll do right now
Interesting . . . and totally inaccurate on many levels. But still interesting.

(the sex was great? how ironic.)
  • Current Music
    SR-71- right now
sleepy

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You said boy make girl feel good
But still...deep inside...STILL!
I've never felt alone
Till I met you
I'm alright on my own
Till I met you
And I'd know what to do if I just knew what's coming
I would change myself if I could
I'd walk with my own people if I could find them,
And I would say that I'm sorry to you,
I'm sorry to you, but I don't want to call you,
But then I want to call you cause I don't want to crush you,
But I feel like crushing you and it's true
I took for granted you were with me,
I breath by your looks and you look right through me
But we were broken and didn't know it
We were broken and didn't know
We were broken and didn't know it
We were broken and didn't know
Right...oh, what's right?
Something's gone you withdraw and I'm not strong like before I was
Deep inside of you
I can go nowhere I burn candles and stare at a ghost
Deep inside of you
And some great need in me, starts to bleed
I've lost my self there's nothing left, it's all gone
Deep inside of you
Deep inside of you

(note - it's only about the last half of the song.)
  • Current Music
    [ThirdEye]-Deep Inside Of You