March 17th, 2001



It's snowing outside. It just started a little bit ago, and already the ground is white. The snow's falling basically straight down - an oddity. The tops of buildings are turning whitish, and I can see the bikes beginning to be buried. It'll take a while. It won't get far, of course - it'll snow a bit, then stop. That's how it always works.

It's really pretty.

I want to look out at the snow for hours, and just watch it pile up. But I can't. My mind quickly wanders and I wish to be doing something else. Imagine the things that you could be doing as a plane, with peaks and valleys, and the mind gravitates towards valleys. Snow-watching is on a very steep slope - perhaps a peak. It's something that my mind falls away from - it doesn't feel like it's being useful, even if it's something I want to do.

Being with someone else is a valley. I could cheerfully curl up with someone and look out the window, and watch the snow pile up.

There's no good place to do that in Oberlin that I've found. Even location-wise. The beds aren't high enough - it's not enough to see the snow falling, I want to see it landing, even though I can't. I'd need a little nook, near a window. It would be cold there, of course. But that's what blankets are for.

More important, I'd need a person to curl up with . . .

It's strange. I started this log entry thinking that I was feeling lonely. Then I looked out the window and decided to write about snow. Then I decided to write about how emotions and weather reflect each other. Then I decided to simply write about what the emotions and weather inspired in me.

I seem to have done all of them at once.

I look out, and snow coats the ground.

I want to be the snow.
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Grrr. I hate it when I make a deep philosophical entry and immediately follow it with something trivial. But I had to mention this - what other major than computer science would have something that sounds as cool as "mach bands"? Aww jeah. Mach bands.

The definition: "Bands of color that are not smoothly blended across a 3-D primitive."

Aww jeah. Mach bands :)

I'm gonna be snickering about that one for a while. Clearly I need sleep.
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Last one, I promise. Browing the Microsoft DirectX 8.0 docs, and talking about triangles, it provides me with the following gem of insight.

"Any face that is not a front face is a back face."

Well . . . yes.
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    nothing new since a minute ago :P