August 16th, 2001

sleepy

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I'm mostly healed. I think. I know I've said that before, but . . . when I think of my ex, I wish I was with someone, and I wish that what happened hadn't, but it doesn't hurt all that much. I can realistically think about asking other people out, and maybe, just maybe, I can find someone . . .

But still, all the time, there's this ache in my chest reminding me that I'm alone . . . I know I have friends and people to help me, but I still don't have anyone I can just curl up with for a few hours and forget about pain.

sigh.

I really am happier than this sounds like - it's just that I'm getting hit a little harder right now than usual. But it fades. It all fades, in time.
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