August 2nd, 2002

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<JeyK> How do you know Charles Cox?
<ZorbaTHut> I don't. Who's Charles Cox? :P
<JeyK> I used to be a regular on the SWAT3 message boards, and he's a developer on the SWAT series

. . . turns out I do.

I know I've mentioned this before, but does anybody else feel like there's maybe a thousand actual people in Seattle?

I mean, EVERYONE KNOWS EACH OTHER.

EVERYONE.

I'm working for cathexis's cousin, skycrashesdown had a crush on the same girl as I did - and knows *another* girl I had a crush on - I ran into zoidal on the bus (turns out he's working in Seattle, and joe is here too), majorbonnet and shrike30 know each other from way back, zachstroum mentioned galith's boffing club a while back, and I think petfish tripped in front of the Safeway that's near my house . . . and I'm not even *looking* for connections here. I mean, if I went around saying "Hey, who knows <someone's name here>" I can almost *guarantee* you that *somebody* is going to know them.

And with ALL THAT, how come absolutely NOBODY seems to have run into my ex, despite - in some cases - working in the EXACT SAME PLACE? (The Seattle Science Center, for those curious, although I honestly don't know if she still works there or not.)

I may as well ask it straight out here, because *somebody* is going to say "hey, I know her!" - does anybody know a Naomi Bancroft? (And no, this isn't aimed at those who I *know* know her, okay? no smart comments, kthx)

Incidentally, Charles Cox is the_agent - I feel fine about mentioning this because it's in his user profile. :P
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I just realized that it's impossible to express the constant 0 in decimal in C++.

Whenever you write 0, you're writing it in octal.

C++ is a weird language.
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bah. it's not easy to rant on here anymore.

Because no matter how much I say "I don't blame ____" or "I'll deal" the fact is still that I'd be ranting *about* people. And they'd probably recognize it, and recognize them, and they'd be annoyed at me or maybe they'd try to explain themselves. and I've heard it all before and, eh, I'll deal. I'm used to it, I'm used to life. I'll just move on like I always do and somehow build stuff in front of me even while I watch my increasingly-precarious foothold dwindling. (I'll find another one before it's gone. And if I don't, well, I'll fall and I'll grab on again and I'll start making my way up again, I've done it before.)

And that just brings me back to another problem, really - which is that if it was anything new I'd feel fine about writing it. If anything was still a new wound maybe it would be right to comment on it. I wouldn't have to name names, the people in question would know, and they might not be *happy* but they'd know.

But it isn't new. It's all over and done with and it's just the same old scars, and I'm as tired of mentioning it as you are of hearing it.

And you're tired of hearing *that* too. I know I am.

But it still hurts, and so I still have to write about it, because it's the only way I can get it out consistently that doesn't involve Bad Things.

So that's what I'll do.

It's okay.

I'm used to it.
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