January 30th, 2004

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I'm thinking college might have been the wrong choice.

I'm not sure there's anything here that I can't get other places. The classes are interesting . . . somewhat . . . but I'm not sure it's worth it. Three years for an EE degree - it would be nice, but would I really use it? A year and a half for a CS degree, unless I can talk them into doing something weird - but, honestly, why do I want a CS degree?

It'll be unbelievably expensive.

And it's not like there's anything here that I can't get other places. The people are . . . well, people. I'm starting over from ground zero, trying to find people to be friends with, and realizing that even if I can I'm just going to have to do it all again when I get a job. And it's not like the density of people-that-I-like is any higher here than anywhere else - I mean, come on, if I end up working at Google or NVidia or GenericGameCompany, the "interest" factor will probably be near 100%.

So why am I here exactly?

First answer: Because I refuse to *run away*, I refuse to be chased away from college, which is basically what happened last time. After one semester here, if I do well, that will no longer apply.

Second answer: Because I want to get a degree . . . I think.

Third answer: To learn more stuff . . . that I won't use . . . that I could learn in a community college, for much cheaper, while working somewhere I like . . .

Fourth answer: . . . why *am* I here?

I'm not going to leave halfway through this semester. I'm not gonna be chased away. I want to finish this semester and do it *well*.

I'm not sure I want to come back next year, though.

Any comments? Anything I'm missing?
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Thought:

College is no longer useful for me, because I've learned how to learn.

The classes I'm in are all waaaaay too slow. Even the ones on subjects that I don't know. I could buy the textbook and assimilate it in two weeks, two hours a day, at least well enough to know where to find things that I don't know. I've done that before, since leaving college, and I really enjoyed it too.

Right now, I'm sitting there bored listening to things that I admittedly don't know, but that I most assuredly do know after glancing at the slide for fifteen seconds . . . and then watching the professor explain the slide for five minutes. Or more.

And I'm paying how many thousands of dollars to progress through at a snail's pace?

I could probably do just as good of a job by renting a house in the middle of nowhere, buying some textbooks, and holing up and learning for a year or three. And I'd have far more time to go out and have fun, too. *And* I'd end up with a lot more money left over at the end of it.

I think my decision is made. I don't have to decide immediately, of course, but . . . I can't think of anything that would change my mind.

On the other hand, that's why I'm mulling it over.

Comments definitely appreciated.