February 4th, 2006


really, it's all just for the fangirls

At some point I'm going to need a fan club.

Not "rah rah rah, go Zorba". That kind's dull. I mean the kind that gathers around people who write interesting things. The kind theferrett gets. Or Websnark.

It's mostly for the game studio. Every game studio out there has a dedicated group of one kind or another. For one thing, Emotional investment is a Good Thing. That's why I buy all the Metroid games without bothering with reviews. Because Metroid is consistently good, and if it isn't good, I want to know why. For another thing, you get that kind of feedback from your fanbase. "This was great." "This wasn't great." "What were you thinking?" "Here's some ideas!" And that's valuable. More than valuable, I suspect that's critical - and I suspect the lack of this is a major problem with many game studios. And finally, there's the community. It's a pool of talent. It's a pool of knowledge. It's a pool of somewhat-like-minded individuals, and people *like* being part of that.

So I want to put together a community.

Not a normal game community.

Go to most standard game forums and you'll see fanboyism. "This game is the best thing ever, in every conceivable way! All others are number two or lower." And that's not what I'm interested in. I don't want lackeys. That's boring. I want discussion. I want thought. I suppose what I want to create the most would be a game development academy, but that's probably far, far off.

The problem is *making* something like this.

Here's where I get egotistical. I believe I'm good enough at writing, and have enough interesting things to say about gaming, that I can attract people who are like-minded. I believe I can put together a journal that people read because they want to hear what I have to say. And I believe I can then link this into a forum, and eventually into my game studio, and start constructing the kind of community I want.

The only thing I can't figure out is where to do it.

I like having a personal journal. Here's where I can post things like "Guys, I found this awesome noodle!" and attach pictures of a curiously twisted piece of spaghetti. And, you know, you just can't do that on a major blog. (Well, you *can*, but people get sick of it.) I like having a place where I can grumble about being lonely, because, hell, it happens and I want an outlet for it.

A further problem that I've been considering lately is this journal's history. I started this very shortly after the messy breakup with my first girlfriend, and, to be honest, started it by posting lame goth poetry. It's a phase of my life that I accept. It happened. I got through it. I'm stronger for it. I don't want to *remove* this stuff off the Internet because, let's face it, it's a major part of me - but I also don't want people to say "Oh hey, that guy can really write, let's go look through his history!" and find posts consisting solely of the mood "lonely".

I mean, seriously.

The best idea I've had so far is to split in much the same fashion as Websnark has. I don't know what his motivation was for that, but it's a good idea - the Let's Talk About Interesting Stuff journal on its own domain, and a personal-life journal on LJ. Which also neatly solves the Goth History problem. And I'd probably crosspost entries, with comments disabled on my personal-life journal, at least until I got a reasonable fanbase on the Interesting Stuff journal.

Assuming I ever did, but at least I'd get to write interesting stuff in a location separate from IRC quotes.

But I'm still mulling. If anyone else has suggestions, I'd love to hear 'em.