April 10th, 2006

sleepy

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I've had plans for my game studio for a while. I've got half a dozen games I want to make, and I've got a loose ordering that I want to make them in. I'm not sure what the seventh game I want to make is. And this is all up for debate, I might, I decide to change #2 if something goes brutally wrong.

I've known, for a very long time, what #1 had to be. It's simple to make. It's a solid game style, that consistently sells. It's a niche that's not even close to being filled - there's only one competitor, really, and that series isn't released often.

On the other hand, that particular series is one of the Goliaths of the gaming world. It's not as big as Mario. But if you asked someone to list the best-known franchises, it would probably be up there in the top ten.

I just realized that this series has moved out of my niche. My niche is empty. 100% empty. No competition whatsoever, and it still sold well!

Man, I gotta get this thing started before someone ganks my niche.
sleepy

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I know what I want to do with my life.

I know where I'm going to spend my energy. I've got the next five years or so planned out - and then I've got a few decades past that planned out also, in lesser detail. I might change my mind, and often I decide to make some variations on my plan. Everything's always a *bit* hazy.

But essentially, I know what I'm going to spend my life doing.

Sometimes, though, it feels like I'm being forced through this. I don't need to spend *all* my energy on this path, right? I should have some for myself. And yet whenever I think I might be given a little bit more of a release valve, I get smacked down again. Sorry. That's not allowed. Go back to what you were doing.

I mean, sheesh, it's not even subtle now.

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I definitely can't use this journal for my Writing About Games. I need this one to write in for me, once in a while. I guess I'm not entirely past the Emo stage. Maybe I should post some Nickelback lyrics.

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The problem with being me is that you're always tripleguessing yourself. Why am I doing this? Why am I saying this? Am I being too vague, or not vague enough? Am I trying to manipulate people? Should I stop?

I'm not looking for anything when I post like this. I mean, I realize that's a classic way of saying "please pay attention to me", but it's honestly true. It's just a way of getting stuff that I don't want in my head out of my head. It's close to the only release valve I've got, and once in a while I just need to unravel some of the worst tangles and put them here. (How's that for a mixed metaphor.)

I'm doing pretty damn well overall, though. I don't need this often, and not nearly as badly as I used to. I guess, for me at least, that's something to be proud of.

We now return you to your regular programming.