because see it needs to be written. I think. because this is my journal and it's about me, right, so shouldn't it be accurate?
but people read this journal who talk to me and are involved so maybe it shouldn't be, because then everyone will be happier.
and you could say "don't read this if it will hurt you" but then everyone will whether it will or not (this is psychology) and it wouldn't do any good.
or you could set it so that only the people who should read it could read it but that seems dishonest because it's the very people who shouldn't read it who probably should and shouldn't.
plus I am of course faced with the fact that I really want the people to read it and the only thing I can assume from that is that I'm starting to get bitter and that's not a good thing.
I hope I'm not manipulating people. I'm not that complex. what I say is what I mean and no more.
read this. tomorrow I might post an updated version.