And you know what? I'm *not* attacking you. She's my friend - and I'm not posting on your journal about what a horrible person you are. I'm not insulting you, I'm not telling you that you shouldn't have done it or that you were forcing yourself on her. And you know why I'm not? Because I don't know what was going on.
Didn't stop *you*, though.
And you want to know the painful part? Of course you do. The painful part is that you two will be back together again. You two will be friends, despite whatever it is you did, despite this being the second or the third or the fourth time. And I don't get those chances. I get one chance . . . and if I screw that up, it's over, and it never goes back to the way it was.
And that's why I envy you.
(no, this isn't aimed at anyone on my list. the person in question took himself off my friends list half a year ago.)