Because no matter how much I say "I don't blame ____" or "I'll deal" the fact is still that I'd be ranting *about* people. And they'd probably recognize it, and recognize them, and they'd be annoyed at me or maybe they'd try to explain themselves. and I've heard it all before and, eh, I'll deal. I'm used to it, I'm used to life. I'll just move on like I always do and somehow build stuff in front of me even while I watch my increasingly-precarious foothold dwindling. (I'll find another one before it's gone. And if I don't, well, I'll fall and I'll grab on again and I'll start making my way up again, I've done it before.)
And that just brings me back to another problem, really - which is that if it was anything new I'd feel fine about writing it. If anything was still a new wound maybe it would be right to comment on it. I wouldn't have to name names, the people in question would know, and they might not be *happy* but they'd know.
But it isn't new. It's all over and done with and it's just the same old scars, and I'm as tired of mentioning it as you are of hearing it.
And you're tired of hearing *that* too. I know I am.
But it still hurts, and so I still have to write about it, because it's the only way I can get it out consistently that doesn't involve Bad Things.
So that's what I'll do.
I'm used to it.