Zorba the Hutt (zorbathut) wrote,
Zorba the Hutt

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emotional sisyphus

it never ends.

it's just an unending stream, and i can't find a way out.

i find one person to care about me just in time for the last one to leave me . . . and then i frantically search for another one, before the current one realizes that they don't like me.

because they will.

it's inevitable.

and there are a few exceptions, people who by all rights should hate me by now but for some reason don't. very few. and i make every effort to avoid stressing that relationship. to avoid leaning too much. because it will fail eventually, it has to, but for now maybe it's an emergency reserve if things fall apart faster than i thought they would.

and eventually i won't be able to find someone new.

eventually everyone will leave me.

i can't keep this up forever.
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