rejection. pain. loneliness.
and I can't shake feeling like it'll happen again. because I've been here before. "It's okay. It'll all be better now. She cares about me. She loves me. It'll all be better now." And it isn't. and I get torn apart (again) and left behind (again) and forgotten about (again) and it never gets any better.
and there's nothing anybody can do about it.
maybe in two years. maybe if we're still together, maybe if it really has gotten better. maybe if I'm happy.
but I just can't believe anymore.