The gist of it was, of course, totally unrelated to this entry (isn't it funny how that works? the things we find most important are the ones that other people didn't find important at all, and that's *why* we find them most important . . . ) but a line or two in the entry. Basically, it came down to trust. This guy trusted her. He trusted she wasn't just using him and going on to something better. He trusted that they were still friends, that she liked him for him, that there would be a Next Time.
That's something I can't trust now, and that hurts, because I want to trust. I just can't.
I can't believe that people like me for *me*. There's always some other reason. Often because we share interests, and that's OK. But if we don't share many interests . . . then what? Why do people like me? Because if we don't share many interests, that seems to be a pretty definite indicator that I'm going to be used and dumped.
But other people make friends when they don't share every interest. How does it work? It doesn't seem to be something I'm able to do. I just don't get it.
And that's what it all comes down to. If I can't see why someone likes me . . . chances are, very soon, they won't.
So far it's been pretty consistent.