except it's not okay. it hurts. I've been betrayed again, abandoned again, lied to again. By someone who promised they wouldn't do any of that, by someone who *knew* what it would do, how much it would hurt, how much I couldn't take it happening all over again. And I've said it anyway. I've said that it's okay, that I don't really mind, and I've done what I could to not mind . . .
and you know what? I mind. I don't like being stepped on. I don't like being used and exploited. I suppose I should be used to it, but I just don't like it. I loved her and did what I could for her, and I get dumped for it . . . again.
I'm tired of being used. And while I still care for her, I don't forgive her.
maybe i've just gotten too hardened.
(incidentally, something screwed up in my friends group - if you can read this, you should also be able to read this, and you may not have seen it because of the aforementioned glitch.)