Zorba the Hutt (zorbathut) wrote,
Zorba the Hutt

I don't want her to hurt. I want to say it's okay, that I'll be all right.

except it's not okay. it hurts. I've been betrayed again, abandoned again, lied to again. By someone who promised they wouldn't do any of that, by someone who *knew* what it would do, how much it would hurt, how much I couldn't take it happening all over again. And I've said it anyway. I've said that it's okay, that I don't really mind, and I've done what I could to not mind . . .

and you know what? I mind. I don't like being stepped on. I don't like being used and exploited. I suppose I should be used to it, but I just don't like it. I loved her and did what I could for her, and I get dumped for it . . . again.

I'm tired of being used. And while I still care for her, I don't forgive her.

maybe i've just gotten too hardened.

(incidentally, something screwed up in my friends group - if you can read this, you should also be able to read this, and you may not have seen it because of the aforementioned glitch.)
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