This is a night where I can Change Things.
ha, it's great! Mind spinning off in thousands of directions at once - that line before there leads to Aladdin leads to Robin Williams leads to a conversation in a parking lot leads to Shrek leads to dragons leads to Ultima Online leads to the Dreamland project leads to . . . ha, I've lost that thread, gone in the multitude, but it all comes together at nights like this and I can bend myself consciously.
Last time . . . what *was* the last time?
I don't know - lessee, way back when after the Escaflowne Incident I did a shift to make myself more social. Same at last-sakuracon-minus-one.
And I've got brownies cooking. Tonight is good ^^
and if I wasn't stuck on this lousy computer I could channel some of it into that game whose latest acronym I have forgotten which doesn't matter as I'll make another one up shortly anyway!
*THIS* is me, folks. This is the real me that can only stretch its wings half a dozen nights a year. I recognize it again. I'll have lost it by tomorrow, of course, that's the way it always works out, but I can pull closer.
Laugh, if I had transportation and was 21 I could go down to a nightclub or something and really be myself, and I would come out of there with someone female. I know it. Ever had one of those nights where you have a truly wonderful response to anything anyone says? I'm getting multiple responses. (leads to ping, leads to . . . something I cannot express in words.)
Oh, speaking of things that can't be expressed in words, I might be getting an internship at Digital Kitchen if I'm lucky! Ever heard of 'em? They did the Six Feet Under intro. And other things. They rock. This would rock.
This all rocks.
I still want replies to my last post :) This just . . . doubletripleaffirms (leads to, um, I don't even *know* what that is) that she's not sucking me back in again, that she *can't* because I can dance emotional circles around her right now, and *that* at least tends to last a week or two.