Zorba the Hutt (zorbathut) wrote,
Zorba the Hutt

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So I went and talked with my ex, and, well . . . don't really feel like recapping the entire thing again. Suffice to say, if she *does* care about me, she hides it mighty well under a facade of having absolutely nothing to say to me. Plus she's got the guy from Hawaii here, and I shall henceforth refer to him as The Flunky, since it appears to me that whenever she's angry at me she sends him out to yell at me and talk about how she actually does care about me.

My feeling . . . if she wants to talk to me, why doesn't *she* talk to me?

Well . . . it's not exactly mine. I have to give loads of credit to tira/heronblue for this - if anyone happens to have something nice they're not using - like, say, all the happiness she could ever want, or condensed beauty, or a medieval castle complete with staff, or a small universe, I suggest giving it to her, as she's earned it as far as I'm concerned :) (thanks thanks thanks thanks!)

But anyway. The flunky basically said that I shouldn't go out in search of her, because she needs healing time, and this isn't about me, it's about her, and when I talked to her, Tira said that he was insane and that it wasn't about *anyone*, it was about pain and suffering and trying to avoid it. And she's the one who's keeping me in limbo, and therefore, I need to find out what's happening.

Which, now that I think about it, makes a *lot* more emotional sense. And I don't know if it's just me being selfish or anything, but, eh, I don't really care at this point either . . . so tira's said that she'll call and see if my ex actually wants to talk with me, and if so, she'll set up a neutral meeting somewhere for us. Without the flunky. (Because if I'm going to talk to her, I'm going to talk to her, and I don't want to have to argue with someone who doesn't even know me.)

So maybe this'll actually get resolved sometime down the line :/

Oh, and cathexis, her cable is down, which is why she's not responding on ICQ. though it still doesn't explain why she didn't reply to my first message, now that I think about it. And I don't know if she saw the second or not . . . bah. Well, if she wants to talk, I'll figure all this out, I guess, and if she doesn't . . .

well, if she doesn't, that's that, isn't it?
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