My feeling . . . if she wants to talk to me, why doesn't *she* talk to me?
Well . . . it's not exactly mine. I have to give loads of credit to tira/heronblue for this - if anyone happens to have something nice they're not using - like, say, all the happiness she could ever want, or condensed beauty, or a medieval castle complete with staff, or a small universe, I suggest giving it to her, as she's earned it as far as I'm concerned :) (thanks thanks thanks thanks!)
But anyway. The flunky basically said that I shouldn't go out in search of her, because she needs healing time, and this isn't about me, it's about her, and when I talked to her, Tira said that he was insane and that it wasn't about *anyone*, it was about pain and suffering and trying to avoid it. And she's the one who's keeping me in limbo, and therefore, I need to find out what's happening.
Which, now that I think about it, makes a *lot* more emotional sense. And I don't know if it's just me being selfish or anything, but, eh, I don't really care at this point either . . . so tira's said that she'll call and see if my ex actually wants to talk with me, and if so, she'll set up a neutral meeting somewhere for us. Without the flunky. (Because if I'm going to talk to her, I'm going to talk to her, and I don't want to have to argue with someone who doesn't even know me.)
So maybe this'll actually get resolved sometime down the line :/
Oh, and cathexis, her cable is down, which is why she's not responding on ICQ. though it still doesn't explain why she didn't reply to my first message, now that I think about it. And I don't know if she saw the second or not . . . bah. Well, if she wants to talk, I'll figure all this out, I guess, and if she doesn't . . .
well, if she doesn't, that's that, isn't it?