nights like this i'm never quite sure what sane means and what insane means. or what the difference is or why i should care. if i can do things, what does it matter why, what does it matter how?
funny thing is you'd think all of this would be resolved when i'm sane, but it isn't, i'm not really sure then either. i'm just sure that i'm not sure so i can pretend i know.
i suppose i'm closer to reality when i'm less sane. it's kind of ironic and amusing, but so it goes.
ah well. sleep.
don't worry, i'll be saner in the morning.